Why have one when you can have them all?

I had just turned 17 and had broken up with a boyfriend... ((big fuckin deal)) but at that time my heart was broken. My Dad and I were on our way to a movie (daddy daughter date) and we began talking about how I was upset. Papa bear being the straight shooter the world knows him to be, takes my hand while he is driving and says " I know that it hurts honey, but your beautiful and everyone wants to be around you.... So why have one when you can have them all"

Now, you are probably thinking.... Who the fuck tells their daughter that. I don't think he meant go be a skankadilly hooker bitch. I think that he was trying to explain to me that I was 17, I've got my whole life ahead of me. Why have one, you can have them all. You can hold the entire world in your hands. However, I must say I spent the next several years figuring out exactly what that meant.... Because at first I took it in it's literal terms.... Like shhhiiiiit if my Papa doesn't care, neither do I... And then the fucking spree began. I'd like to say I was only searching for myself, searching for love... but I wasn't, I was just searching for that next hit... you know when a heroin fiend is looking for her next hit of the black tar to inject to her veins for 20 minutes of euphoria? Yeah I found that satisfaction what, I compare to a 22 yr old male porn stars, sexual appetite. Only thing is those lucky bastards get paid for it.

Anyhow, as I began getting older (notice I didn't use the word mature) I began yearning for more. Something of substance.... I wish that I could be telling you that I was looking for a substance to abuse... But I mean relationships, pardon me while I vomit.... Okay, I'm back. The world wind relationships I found myself involved in, were..... well they were shit. I took 2 years off from the dating scene to just reflect on myself, gain a vast knowledge of who I was, where I was going and what I wouldn't stand for.

So yeah I went on this adventure of finding one's self... It's really boring and I'm not going to bother you with the details..Anyhow so although not truly ready to hit the dating scene and against better judgement, I did. It ended up with me wanting more... To make a relationship official... And well he wasn't ready... Instead of turning into a hot fuckin mess... I mean we have to remember I was only a "friend" I summond my internal wisdom and thought.... " I know that it hurts honey, but your beautiful and everyone wants to be around you.... So why have one when you can have them all"

This time at least I know what it means... thankfully, I would prefer not to wear out the plumbing....


Happy to be free,

Your Personal Madam
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